that it looks to be so inevitable just pisses me off even more. from beginning to end, a complete failing, everything futile - nothing to do except struggle knowing it to be futile, & knowing that for how impossibly difficult it is for me, it could be so easy if someone with the power (that is, any adult at all) had deigned to act rather than sit & go on about whose kids are whose, a lack of legal obligation outweighs any higher responsibility. from the difficult birth all the way up to now, being able to see each result held in the very start, walking backwards through it i still feel so pissed off. i want to be here. i want to be here. it’s completely unreturned. i have such a short time
there was a tiktok I made a while ago basically saying “your abusive ex boyfriend is more likely a misogynist than a narcissist” and while most people agreed some said I was victim blaming(?) and that I couldn’t know what their ex is like, and while obviously I don’t, every fucking person describing their narcissistic ex is describing a typical misogynist. ask yourself, is this behavior you associate with narcissism directed at women or does he treat his male friends the same way? is his general functioning in life impaired?
many people don’t seem to know this, but a mental disorder is NOT based on symptoms alone, it’s based on how much the symptoms actually impair you in daily life. most people could look at a list of mental disorder symptoms and identify either themselves or someone else with them. as far as a narcissistic personality, we all know people who appear more self absorbed than others, but this is typically subclinical narcissism (presence of narcissistic traits without significant impairment of functioning) which is not a disorder. there is also a misunderstanding of what npd is. a narcissist is not a supervillain invincible to emotion. npd is a defensive reaction to trauma that lead to deep insecurity and fear of being seen as weak or vulnerable. so narcissists aren’t actually “in love with themselves” at all and often are diagnosed when seeking help for other issues such as substance abuse resulting from their struggles.
this focus a lot of abused women in online pop psychology have on narcissism is particularly concerning because it completely glosses over misogyny which is literally a huge factor in violence against women. people really only know misogyny as a surface level thing. they don’t know it can lead to family annihilation, for example, and is one reason most family annihilations are committed by the husband. it’s always “this man is a sociopath” “this man is a narcissist” when the man’s behavior is driven by ideology. I am so fucking tired of everything being tied to mental illness and left at that. you know what this leads to? courts “fixing” abusive men by…giving them anger management therapy. guess what? it doesn’t fucking do anything because the problem isn’t mental instability leading to anger, it’s targeted, purposeful abuse. we are getting nowhere
